Have you ever thought about what would happen If you did something unexpected. Something out of character. I mean something you wouldn’t normally do. and I’m not talking about risks people take or trying new things. I’m talking about listening to that voice that most of us old souls ignore. the voice of reason.
This voice is telling me to walk away. It always does, but I stay. these days though I’m getting more and more restless. the voice is getting louder and the temptation is stronger, especially that staying only got me hurt. so, what would happen if you walked away and turned your back on the feelings of guilt, shame and helplessness?
What would happen if you give up on that innate desire that urges you to take the fall for someone, to fix things, because it doesn’t have to be like that?
You’re not meant to carry people’s hurt, to make up for their errors. I’m thinking that nodding and staying neutral is a lot easier option. no repercussions. What if they were family, bestfriends, soulmates even? you’ll try to convince yourself it’s worth it and you’re supposed to be there for people you care about. But, enough is enough. truly.
you’ve been picking up everyone else’s broken pieces you didn’t even feel it when your heart broke along the way. forgotten promises and high expectations. sometimes not even that high!
you’ve given them all you had and now you have nothing. there’s only so much a person can take. I mean what happened to give and take?
I’m thinking I have all the reasons to give up. I have built a logical case for myself. my motives are actually just one: self-preservation.
I need a little more laughs in my life and a lot less teeth-clenching and nervous break downs.